Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Mock Cycle = Over ( i think )

My appointment already had a good vibe to it when i arrived early in hopes to getting out early enough to make it to work without being late. They took me right on in, a half an hour early. WOOT!!!

My Doctor was not in just yet so I would not be talking to them, just had my ultrasound. The ultrasound tech measured my lining and said it was definately thicker and should be right where we want it to be.
I left, went to work and waited. As my lunch approached, I still had not heard from the office so i called. Come to find out, my Doctor wasn't even in the office today. Nice, right? A nurse reviewed my ultrasound and told me to stop my meds. This is a good thing. Since this was just a mock, i'm pretty sure I stop all meds, get a period, and we start meds again. This is what I think. But for now, i'm going to go to bed and await my phone call tomorrow!

I did call "mom" tonight to. She has been through sooo much that it is hard for her to get excited about each step. I however, can't control my excitement with each step. So when i called her, i said to her - you need to get excited, this is it. I'm confident this is going to happen for you!
Then I said...jump up and down 3 times and scream. Just do it! Sure enough, she sat the phone down and did it.  ; )   She is closer now than she ever has been to becoming a mom and I am going to do whatever it takes to make it happen for her!  

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Getting a thicker lining...one day at a time!

I logged in tonight and couldn't believe that I didn't update my blog after my last appointment. I built up all of that excitement and just left it hanging.

So Rewind to that day first. I got to my appointment and was waiting in the waiting room when i heard the door open. Who was it? Idah! (the intended mom)   She had known about the appointment and wanted to surprise me. Isn't she awesome?? She said she knew how anxious I had been feeling and didn't want me to be alone.
I got called back to appointment, had my ultrasound done and.........
                                                                                 NO. SPOT !!!!

Eat that uterus! If it wouldn't have been for some long camera thing hanging out from my insides, i would have done about 1,000 screams, jumps, hugs to the nurse, etc.....!! Lucky for her, i stayed put.

My doctor wasn't in yet so I had to leave there not knowing much else of what would happen from here.
I got to tell Idah who smiled from ear to ear and we shared a nice hug in the office. We then hung out in the parking lot talking for a bit, sharing some feelings, hopes, and just overall excitement about this whole thing.

Later that day I did get a call from my doctor, giving me the next weeks instructions. It was time to start an oral pill (estrodial) two times a day and lower my Lupron to 5 units each evening. Next followup appt - Tuesday Sept 20.

That was yesterday...

Again no doctor present. The nurse who was doing my ultrasound said that everything looks great but my uterine lining is still pretty thin. In medical terms - it should be at a 7.5 and I am at a 6.4. She did say this is pretty normal and its the reason why they the mock. This way they can see how much of what meds I need to get my lining right where it should be for the real deal.
Got a call from the Dr later that day who confirmed it is a little too thin to stop the mock. So i now up my dose of the oral meds to 3 times a day and i go back Tuesday.

Recap: Its all good under the hood and we are back to waiting!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Can't Sleep

It's 11:50 pm. I should really be sleeping by now. This whole week I have been such a night owl. I'm not sure what it is. The fact that I got a new car and I LOVE waking up to drive it, the floods that have been going on in our area and surrounding counties, or this appointment tomorrow. I'm gonna go with the likely answer - a bit of all!

Got a call tonight from "The Doctors Office". This is what they call themselves when they leave me messages. I thought that was kind of cool. I assumed they were going to cancel my appointment, but i figured it would have to be something of deep concern to do that since this is all about timing. They just needed to change which office i would go to, which in turn made it an earlier appointment. Another reason i should be in bed.

I sent Idah a text tonight to remind her. I was actually going to invite her to come to my appointment with me since Tim won't be able to go, then i had thoughts. What IF I hear those terrible words tomorrow. That this enfamous spot is there and infact, will hold up my surrogacy journey with them as well. Did I really want to be face to face with her at that moment. Ummm...I'll pass.
Fingers Crossed - I'll talk to u tomorrow!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

On My Own!

Lupron Injections started last week. With the chaos of getting Riley prepped for her first week at school, I almost forgot : x
Somehow, Something clicked and i remembered - just in time. However, My doctor was out of town ,Tim was at work. I was so nervous just thinking about having to do this myself. But, i did it. Good thing for me, its a very small, thin needle. Being the big girl that I am, I now do these injections myself! I do think Tim is a bit bummed and left out, but his time is coming. Hopefully. Only with a much bigger needle in my buttox.

I have an appt at the fertility center Friday morning at 9. This is make or break right here. I get butterflies just thinking about it. I will check in Friday night, hopefully ecstatic and not sad!